newbienalwayswillbe

Because my last one was depressing. So let's see..... it's been nearly a year since my last journal..... So what's happened since then? Honestly, I have no idea, things just sort of flew by and I said "lol, wut?" and that's how it went. So basically, I got less tarded and more smarted, or something like that. Doing stuff is boring and so is this journal, which is a piece of shit btw. Faggots r gay.

As of Thursday of this week, he's gone. For how long I don't know. Four years at the least. It hurts so much, although it was only 2 or 3 days since I last saw him. I can't stop thinking of him. I can't stop thinking about how I'm going to lose him. By bullet? Explosion? Burning? I really can't take it. I'm so weak, but I have to be strong, I need to be strong. As strong as he is.... But how can I be that strong. I don't think it's possible. This is horrible. He's off to New York, then to the Marines. I'm not even sure if he'll make it back. Will he be satisfied with glory? The glory of dying in battle? I just hope that he kn

Thank fucking satan it's here. I've been waiting for so long for it to be here!! These past couple weeks have been absolute shit. So I am hoping that the Spring Break brings up the spirits of this little emo shit inside me. In other news... I'm going to a Muse concert on Tuesday!!!!